I don't like co-sleeping with my girls.
I know, I know, "They will only be little once! Take advantage of it while you can!" Here is the thing, I love cuddling up with their little bodies and peacefully drifting off to sleep. But sometime during the night those peaceful little angels turn into crazy killer ninjas that Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon all over my Queen sized bed!
As if bitten hands and a bloody nose (poor Hubs) aren't enough I sometimes wake up to a random boob rubbing! When this happens I think I need to smack Hubs and say "Sleepy time! Not sexy time!" But it turns out he's on the other side of the bed and the Monster is the fondle and she does it in her sleep! (She has a thing where she loves to suck her thumb and rub on skin.) Ugh, my breastfeeding days are over! My boobies have returned to being fun bag status!! Little girls don't touch them any more!
All this was enough to finally have Hubs and I tell the girls, "Sleep in your own beds!" Their pitiful cries made us soften up a little so that when they asked "Can we sleep in each others' bed?" We caved and said "Yes." The peaceful nights of sleep were very much welcomed and I thought "This is something I can get used to." But now Bug is getting to a point where she wants privacy. Here is a conversation I heard between the girls.
Bug: "I'm sleeping in my own bed tonight."
Monster: "Okay, I will sleep in your bed too."
Bug: "I want to sleep by myself."
Monster: "Why? Are you mad at me?"
Bug: "I just want to!"
Monster: "What did I do? Why are you mad at me?"
Hearing Monster's feeling be hurt is so heartbreaking! I cant' be mad at Bug, she's eight, she wants her own time and space and it's not her responsibility to make Monster feel secure... that's mine and Hubs. So I have to work on Monster feeling comfortable enough to sleep in her own bed solo. I don't know when I will do it...because Bug gave in and slept in Monster's bed last night... But I will do it soon. Just not tonight